2017 

Transparency Moment: 2017 has been the hardest year of my life. ( 2009 was a close second) 2017 came along with residual damage from 2016. Dealing, with 3 major losses and by February I knew I was heading down a deep dark path. What’s worse – People pretending to be your friend while looking at you sympathetically, offering empty words of encouragement they don’t even believe, then talking about you behind your back and in your face. ( family too) waiting to cheer your demise. Or pretending to have it all together on the outside while secretly dying a thousand tiny deaths everyday? Anti depressants couldn’t save me, the will to live didn’t entice me, prayers didn’t reach me, food and alcohol didn’t comfort me. I allowed men and one sided friendships take advantage of me. Life left me with more questions then answers. On 9.8.17 I went to seeking a word and left renewed. A sweet voice saying daughter you shall live and not die and in that moment I knew I would never be the same. Saturday came along with a message to Bling. Sundays message Godly interruptions was icing on the cake. This week has been hard but oh so worth it. I’m coming out on the other side. A warrior goddess, more confident than ever, the great Phoenix rising. My anger and disappointment fuel my will to live. My smile lights my path. My bitterness was for my betterment. 

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Waist training

What is waist training? Waist training is used to gradually reduce the waist by using a latex waist trainer or a corset. I am waist training with a two row corset size 34. I have lost over 50 pounds now but I have not been satisfied with my stomach since I’ve had 2 c-sec. Before I had kids I always had a small waist and through diet and exercise I know I can have it again. When I am wearing my waist trainer I am measuring at a 26 inch waist I  plan to train until I am on hook one with this trainer and then move to corset size 32 and train until I am on hook one for maintenance.
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Getting waisted!

My weight loss journey 202 lbs- 144 lbs

I have shared my dating and acne stories with my readers, but did you know I have embarked on a weight loss journey as well? My highest weight ever was 220 pounds and that was at the end of my pregnancy with my first child after gaining 80 pounds. I lost 60 pounds before getting pregnant with my second child. I got my wakeup call to begin my journey after weighing in at 202 pounds. I am only 5’5 and that was entirely too much weight for such a small frame. I currently wear a size 6, and weigh between 144-147pounds. My goal is to get to 135 pounds by the end of the year and then maintain that weight. For my height 114 pounds – 150 pounds is considered a BMI of 19-25 which is healthy. I share my fitness journey to encourage others. No matter where life finds you, no matter how much weight you have to lose or how much time you may not have you can do this. Decide today that you are worth it. You will make time. You will eat healthy and workout.

I am worth it. I matter.

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The body I work for not want for

Short dresses with long sleeves motivate me.

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I started Jillian Michaels Ripped in 30 today.

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This is my I almost died working out face. I just want to say to anyone trying to lose weight : stick with it and never give up. I started out at 202 lbs. It wasn’t easy but if I can do it, so can you.
I’m just a flyyy girl working on her temple. Mind, body, and soul.